This Is Where the Universe Will Play a Trick on You

Well, I thought myself right into a conundrum.  Just wanted to get it down before it flitted right out of my fickle head:

I don't believe in a metaphysical world... in a soul or a spirit or anything.  So, then, perhaps my "me" is my body and my mind.  I have no evidence that there is a "me" that is separate from that.  It seems like I HAVE a body and I HAVE a mind, so that there is an "I" that is doing the having.  But it isn't a soul, it is an essence.  My essence.  My self.... my ego-less self?  If I

Something to think about.

A conversation:

Me: You are right...

I don't think there is a point

but I am here, and I have this love, i guess...

It is part of randomly generated me

I look at it all

as said

randomly here

and it is so amazing

i fall in love with it to the point that it hurts

the idea that the whole thing is just pointless makes it MORE incredible

and whatever love and awe this causes me makes me feel compassion or i don't know...

it makes me want to put my love and my awe into action

so i have to find what the right action is... that is how i work, i don't know why

and in order to find the right thing to do

i have to figure it out

so i try to figure

and i try to act

i try to find a way to act in reflection of the awe that i have

Eric: i think this is where the universe will play a trick on you

me: yeah?

Eric: probably